#302 [Jejantans haprak yang tak function langsung.]

Meyesal pun ada. Geram pun ada. Sakit jiwa pun ada.

Aku dah lama hidup menyingel so sejak dua menjak ini adalah gatal terlebih nak mengedik sana sini sampai rasa adalah sangat kekok nak kenal-kenal dengan lelaki. Nak kasi handphone number pun nak kena fikir doploh lapan kalinya. T_T

You know nowadays, the social networking thingy we have on the internet is very the lah kan. Call it online dating, same jerlah. Takkan nak main tulis-tulis surat pulak? Bahaha.

Yang satu aku tak paham, asalkan chatting je, does it mean that aku akan ajak kau kahwin? Mostly people have the perception that they want to find someone to be their partner in whatever thru the means of chatting. Which aku rase, it's wrong to start with lah because apapepun, it begins with being friends. Betul tak? Betul tak?

I got to know a few guys recently dan semuanya aku reject except for one. [Tak tau bila lagi nak reject agaknya.]

And need I tell you that most of them is on my facebook listing, jadi nampak lah segala muka aku yang horror sangat tu semua which is good lah, at least they know who they're dealing with. On the other hand, I don't know how they look like, ade profile pun gambar ntah hapa-hapa. Which I'm okay because I believe that everyone deserves to make friends regardless of how they look like, statues, etc. See see, bagus tak aku? Hmmph.

So I went on "blind-dates." T_T

All of it went well [for me lah..] cos you know lah, mulut aku ni ada lanchau sikit, jadi bebual ajerlah apa-apa yang boleh aku cakap. It's after the 1st meeting that everything just went wrong.

Satu mamat ni, dah jumpa, malam tu jugak dia suruh aku jadi matair dia. Ayat bunga-bunga bukan main lagi. Ape peh matrep dia ni ingat aku ni apa, 7-11 ke. I ignored him and told him I'm not comfortable with it lah tetiba je kan. Sekali dia dah kawin, tak aniaya aku dibuatnya? The next day he started to call me, sayang lah ape lah, kejap-kejap call aku macam eeee rimassss aku lahhhhh. Kalau kau, tak naik amok? Biaserlah, nad kalau dah mengamok. Orang pun tak jadi nak masuk meminang. T_T

Lagi satu ni pulak, aku rase dia terlebih emo. After I met him, that night, I went to sleep terus cos I was really tired. He sent a few smses to me and the latter was some really hurting messages like why I ignored him, why was I being a bitch by not replying to his messages and yang paling tak boleh blah, he told me that he rejected me so don't bother contacting. Apa peh pelanchau mamat ni. Pagi tu jugak aku das dia seketul dua. Apa kau ingat kau dah bagus sangat ke? Bila dah kena khutbah jemaat dengan aku baru lah rasa bersalah. Mintak maaf lah apa lah. Ehhhh kau boleh rilek satu kona, kau layan petik taugeh tu pon best. Takde kuase aku nak melayan orang terlebih emo macam ni.

Semalam punya lagi bikin kasi hot sampai Mama Ann terpaksa menjadi tempat aku mengadu. Hehe. He was a guy from KL, he was here for a sports meet. So okay, since ada 3 days here, I decided to meet him yesterday lah. I told him, I'm at work and I can't meet him earlier. Aku cakap aku pi kerja dia cakap aku sengaja. Wtf kan dia ni? So aku okay, takperlah. He must be mad cos I couldn't make it to support him at his sports meet. Dah tu takpe, keep smsing me suruh aku bawak kawan. Aku cakap nak buat apa? Kawan dia nak kenal-kenal. Ewah ewah. Kau ingat kiteorang kat sini nak menyundal ke? Aku dah binget.

So I ignored him for a while. After work at about 2pm, I went home instead. Around 3, I fell asleep as I was really tired. Pulak tu hujan lebat. Wah syokness. Bila aku bangun, I was left with a few messages. Like he was dissapointed that I couldn't make time for him since he came all the way to Spore. [Ade aku suruh? Ade?] So I replied him, I told him I fell asleep and I'm gonna get ready lah to meet him for dinner. Then aku tanye dia, where is he now, dia cakap Mustafa Centre and he insisted that I go there.

Pale hangok dia! Ade ke patut nak suruh aku pegi sane!! Dah lah crowded dengan kaum sejenis! Kalau aku kene rogol macam mana? Horror okay kalau pegi tempat tu. Aku tak suka gila. Benci. So I told him, can I meet you somewhere else instead? Perhaps somewhere in town. Dah dia marah-marah. Pe hal tak boleh jumpa kat sini, how long do I need to get there, etc. I told him I don't like that area because it's extremely crowded with Indians and I will take about an hour 20 minutes or so to get there. Lagi dia mengamok, why don't you take a cab instead? I'll pay for it! I'm a fucking foreigner here and I don't know why you don't even bother to come and meet me!

Excuse me? Did you just shouted at me? Well okay. If its that easy to pay the cab fare, etc, why don't you come to my area instead? Kau bobal senang lah wei, apalah sangat $20 cab fare from woodlands to serangoon semata-mata nak jumpa kau, seriously I don't mind. Tapi kalau perangai kau macam pelanchau like that, it's not even worth my 2 cents!!!

Pala sotong dia fucking foreigner cakap macam real je. Bebual nak step speaking english konon padehal aku all the way bobal melayu. Kerek sak ini mamat. Binget sial aku. Matreps.

Dah. Lepas ni aku nak menyingel je. Bodoh gila semua mereka ini. T_T